And the obsession continues..
If this is not a sign, I sure as hell don't know what is...
There has always been an age-old debate as to whether things like fate and destiny truly exist.. different cultures, religions and beliefs will ultimately be the thing that influences you one way or the other. Regardless of what you actually believe, one cannot deny that there are things beyond your control and that there exist forces (be that God, mother nature or whatever) that are far more powerful than you.
Fate is generally described as an event, or course of events, that will inevitably happen in the future. That means, it can't be changed - not by us, not by circumstances - it is predetermined and pretty much, set in stone. We, as Buddhists, do not believe in this, as we hold true to the law of Kamma, the law of cause and effect. I shan't turn this into a preaching session, so to sum it up, it's pretty much the belief that everything we do is an effect of a previous cause, and a cause to a future effect. (If anyone's interested, you're welcomed to come talk to me personally about this, I'm all for sharing and preaching Buddhism to those who welcome it!)
Therefore, everything that happens to us (well, almost, anyway), happens for a reason. Good things, bad things, neutral things, whatever it is, is of purpose and consequence to us. As to what that may be, is open for interpretation.. And hence, I have decided to interpret the course of today's events to my advantage, of course. Let me explain.. ('tis a long story, but it shall be worth it!)
I'm currently doing my Obstetrics & Gynaecology attachment, and as I'm part of a big firm, I alternate between obstetrics and gynaecology every 2 weeks. Today marks the beginning of my final obstetrics '2-weeks'. Unfortunately for me, the consultants in my obs firm are notorious for torturing students and expects us to go in on Sundays to talk to patients, in preparation for the ward round on Monday at 8 am. So, the 3 of us had to go in today.
Unfortunately for me, one of my firm-mates was not coming in tomorrow as he had a prior engagement. And at the very last-minute, my other firm-mate told me he was too ill to come in, hence it was just me. I was whining all about it to my parents, aunt & WS on the phone today cos' that meant that I had to single-handedly clerk all the patients and present them at tomorrow's ward round all alone.
My aunt and WS tried to cheer me up that perhaps I may bump into my current crush/obssession, the consultant I was telling you about the other day. (You can read it here if you'd like to refresh your memory) For simplicity purposes, let's call him X. They were purely trying to cheer me up so that I wouldn't be so annoyed about going into hospital on a Sunday afternoon all by myself. I scoffed in their face, laughing out loud that consultants usually don't work on a Sunday, even if they were on call. I was convinced that this was not going to happen.
You can pretty much guess where this story's going.. I turned up on the ward and went along doing what I needed to. I was sitting there, minding my own business, when suddenly, I looked up, and to my complete surprise (and delight!), there he was!!! the handsome X, standing right before me, smiling at me.
I couldn't believe my luck! I was quite shocked I'm sure my surprise must have shown on my face.. But it didn't matter, the fact was, X was here! With me!! On the ward!!! :) After he did what he needed to do (he's on-call this weekend, that means he needs to come in for emergencies or whatever when he gets paged) I got to chit-chatting with him and found out quite a lot about him.. (more to add to my memory bank about him!) and it was sooooo nice! I was absolutely delirious!!!
The one thing I found out that further strengthened my belief that this was a very good sign was the fact that he told me that he only needed to be on-call once every 7 weekends. That means, in my whole 10-week O & G attachment, this was the only time which he would be on-call. I couldn't believe my luck (we'll call it luck, but it's good kamma to me)!!! Of all the coincidences in the world, the most wonderful one happened to me!!! (Plus the fact that I didn't have my fellow firm-mates there who would snicker & disturb my one-on-one with him, this is definitely 'fate'!)
I've never experienced this before.. Having loads of experience with my previous crushes, I've always hoped, prayed and wished that I'll bump into them somewhere, somehow.. whenever I left home, essentially.. Never had any of my wishes ever come true! Never had any of my prayers be answered!!
Yes, as you can see, I'm still totally, completely crazy about X.. he's amazing, really.. He's so incredibly nice, sweet and friendly and I absolutely love it when he smiles.. his whole face lights up and his eyes sparkle with delight! He's such a great teacher as well, and I've got all my fellow students to back me up on this.. He's so good because he engages everyone when he speaks and since I always sit smack in the middle of his field of vision, I get a lot of eye-contact and engaging when he teaches us! Heehee.. calculated actions, I tell u! (Plus, he has the most beautiful blue eyes that are brought out so beautifully when he wears his light blue shirts!)
I have found out so many things about him lately that I'm beginning to think I know him a little better than the rest.. No, I'm not stalking him, but everything I know about him, most of it is because it was straight from the horses mouth! (Except where he did his postgrad degree and his middle name, that, I googled! haha..) As you can imagine, I pay quite a bit of attention to him when he's around, and hence, I remember small little things about him when he tells us stuff. U know how when u talk, u sometimes just drop little things here and there about your life and stuff? Well, I pick those up with him and store them in my memory, helping to create a more whole picture of X. (Ooh, some of my friends feed me info about him that they've picked up from him too) The only thing I don't like about him is the fact that he has a wife. (a lawyer) Other than that, I love that he likes toffee doughnuts, he lives in ___ and just bought a house in ___, his son is soooo incredibly cute and he loves to bring him to the park and well, I think I'll stop there.. haha..
So yes, I believe that today's events is definitely a sign.. Personally, I believe that it's a sign that we're meant to be together.. that we'll fall crazily in love and live happily ever after.. that this love story was written in the stars.. but that's just me..
There has always been an age-old debate as to whether things like fate and destiny truly exist.. different cultures, religions and beliefs will ultimately be the thing that influences you one way or the other. Regardless of what you actually believe, one cannot deny that there are things beyond your control and that there exist forces (be that God, mother nature or whatever) that are far more powerful than you.
Fate is generally described as an event, or course of events, that will inevitably happen in the future. That means, it can't be changed - not by us, not by circumstances - it is predetermined and pretty much, set in stone. We, as Buddhists, do not believe in this, as we hold true to the law of Kamma, the law of cause and effect. I shan't turn this into a preaching session, so to sum it up, it's pretty much the belief that everything we do is an effect of a previous cause, and a cause to a future effect. (If anyone's interested, you're welcomed to come talk to me personally about this, I'm all for sharing and preaching Buddhism to those who welcome it!)
Therefore, everything that happens to us (well, almost, anyway), happens for a reason. Good things, bad things, neutral things, whatever it is, is of purpose and consequence to us. As to what that may be, is open for interpretation.. And hence, I have decided to interpret the course of today's events to my advantage, of course. Let me explain.. ('tis a long story, but it shall be worth it!)
I'm currently doing my Obstetrics & Gynaecology attachment, and as I'm part of a big firm, I alternate between obstetrics and gynaecology every 2 weeks. Today marks the beginning of my final obstetrics '2-weeks'. Unfortunately for me, the consultants in my obs firm are notorious for torturing students and expects us to go in on Sundays to talk to patients, in preparation for the ward round on Monday at 8 am. So, the 3 of us had to go in today.
Unfortunately for me, one of my firm-mates was not coming in tomorrow as he had a prior engagement. And at the very last-minute, my other firm-mate told me he was too ill to come in, hence it was just me. I was whining all about it to my parents, aunt & WS on the phone today cos' that meant that I had to single-handedly clerk all the patients and present them at tomorrow's ward round all alone.
My aunt and WS tried to cheer me up that perhaps I may bump into my current crush/obssession, the consultant I was telling you about the other day. (You can read it here if you'd like to refresh your memory) For simplicity purposes, let's call him X. They were purely trying to cheer me up so that I wouldn't be so annoyed about going into hospital on a Sunday afternoon all by myself. I scoffed in their face, laughing out loud that consultants usually don't work on a Sunday, even if they were on call. I was convinced that this was not going to happen.
You can pretty much guess where this story's going.. I turned up on the ward and went along doing what I needed to. I was sitting there, minding my own business, when suddenly, I looked up, and to my complete surprise (and delight!), there he was!!! the handsome X, standing right before me, smiling at me.
I couldn't believe my luck! I was quite shocked I'm sure my surprise must have shown on my face.. But it didn't matter, the fact was, X was here! With me!! On the ward!!! :) After he did what he needed to do (he's on-call this weekend, that means he needs to come in for emergencies or whatever when he gets paged) I got to chit-chatting with him and found out quite a lot about him.. (more to add to my memory bank about him!) and it was sooooo nice! I was absolutely delirious!!!
The one thing I found out that further strengthened my belief that this was a very good sign was the fact that he told me that he only needed to be on-call once every 7 weekends. That means, in my whole 10-week O & G attachment, this was the only time which he would be on-call. I couldn't believe my luck (we'll call it luck, but it's good kamma to me)!!! Of all the coincidences in the world, the most wonderful one happened to me!!! (Plus the fact that I didn't have my fellow firm-mates there who would snicker & disturb my one-on-one with him, this is definitely 'fate'!)
I've never experienced this before.. Having loads of experience with my previous crushes, I've always hoped, prayed and wished that I'll bump into them somewhere, somehow.. whenever I left home, essentially.. Never had any of my wishes ever come true! Never had any of my prayers be answered!!
Yes, as you can see, I'm still totally, completely crazy about X.. he's amazing, really.. He's so incredibly nice, sweet and friendly and I absolutely love it when he smiles.. his whole face lights up and his eyes sparkle with delight! He's such a great teacher as well, and I've got all my fellow students to back me up on this.. He's so good because he engages everyone when he speaks and since I always sit smack in the middle of his field of vision, I get a lot of eye-contact and engaging when he teaches us! Heehee.. calculated actions, I tell u! (Plus, he has the most beautiful blue eyes that are brought out so beautifully when he wears his light blue shirts!)
I have found out so many things about him lately that I'm beginning to think I know him a little better than the rest.. No, I'm not stalking him, but everything I know about him, most of it is because it was straight from the horses mouth! (Except where he did his postgrad degree and his middle name, that, I googled! haha..) As you can imagine, I pay quite a bit of attention to him when he's around, and hence, I remember small little things about him when he tells us stuff. U know how when u talk, u sometimes just drop little things here and there about your life and stuff? Well, I pick those up with him and store them in my memory, helping to create a more whole picture of X. (Ooh, some of my friends feed me info about him that they've picked up from him too) The only thing I don't like about him is the fact that he has a wife. (a lawyer) Other than that, I love that he likes toffee doughnuts, he lives in ___ and just bought a house in ___, his son is soooo incredibly cute and he loves to bring him to the park and well, I think I'll stop there.. haha..
So yes, I believe that today's events is definitely a sign.. Personally, I believe that it's a sign that we're meant to be together.. that we'll fall crazily in love and live happily ever after.. that this love story was written in the stars.. but that's just me..
posted by Jean at 5:45 PM
2 Comments:
Now, why can't I ever get a girl to feel like that about me? Or at least, ones I find attractive?
Haha, so are you trying to say that the women who have fancied you so far are not attractive? Tsk tsk!! A tad snobbish, don't u think? :P hehe..
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