Perils of my life
You know what I hate most about my life? Being fat.
But today, I've learnt that there's something else that I hate even more.. being fat and being broke.
Yes, this is a ranting-post and I sure as hell am ranting with my sub-par, less-than-satisfactory physical and financial condition now. Doesn't help that there's only so much I can do to rectify it..
Firstly, being fat. No, I'm not asking for loads of people coming to me and consoling me with the whole "Oh no, Jean, you're not fat.." statement. I am not asking for that.. if I need an ego boost, I'll come to you personally and tell you directly that I need one. No need for all the usual beating-around-the-bush b***s**t.. I'm merely stating a fact that I deem true, so please please please, no one try to refute me on this.
Anyhow, I've been on a diet for the past 5-6 weeks. Nothing majorly crashing, cos' I believe that once you lose all the weight you've lost on crashing slimming diets, it's really difficult to maintain it afterwards, when you go back to normal life. So, I'm just taking the initiative to eat healthier than I already am, cut down all, and I mean, all snacks (e.g. chocolates, crisps, biscuits etc) and most importantly, exercise. I've been doing quite well, (apart from this week, which is my major slip-up) and even keeping up my going-to-the-gym-twice-a-week regime and my walking-up-and-down-16-flights-of-stairs-everyday-in-hospital spurt.
However, sad to say, I barely lost 1 kg over this time and am bitterly disappointed. As one of my closest friends, BH, not-so-kindly pointed out, if you're born with a big frame, you're always going to be of a big frame. Some of my more kind friends have suggested that because I'm getting toner, and converting fat to muscle, since muscle is heavier than fat, maybe I'm getting fitter and slimmer anyway. Anyhow, I'm keeping my expectations low and am just going to keep trying my best!
(Incidentally, WS just got back 3-4 weeks ago, (yippie! and hence, the reason why there hasn't been an update for about a month.. hehe.. sorry!) and said I looked slimmer.. so that's a good sign!) Anyway, the reason I'm publicly announcing this is, say a few weeks down the line, when any of you see me (personally), you can tell me directly things like "So how's the diet going?" or "Hey Jean, heard about your diet.. doesn't look like it's working, huh?" to serve as a healthy reminder for me, just in case I slip up.. embarassment and the fear of losing (losing face, in this case) is always the key to success!
Next, issue with my finances.. I have absolutely no idea why I'm so broke. I'm leaving for Barcelona and Madrid for a week next Sunday (WOOHOO!!) and I have to dig into my savings for enough money to spend on the trip. Sighh.. don't think I'm gonna be able to enjoy this trip too much after all.. :( The thing is, even with my current part-time job, I'm still finding it difficult to make ends meet, so I don't know what the heck is going on! Plus, I need to buy my car soon so that's going to drain most of my savings out... Will I have to live on the street?
Apart from that, not really that many updates to post on here.. Got some very interesting news from my long lost friend the other day, but nothing much to share here, as I'm not sure if I'm at liberty to post it publicly.. And there's another issue with one of my 'ji mui' from back home.. again, it certainly is newsworthy, but not sure whether I should publicly announce it here.. These aside, nothing much really.. saw WS twice already since he's been back, and it's certainly been great as we haven't seen each other for so long! Absence certainly makes the heart grow fonder! heehee..
Oh, just a little note. I'm currently doing my Paediatrics attachment, which involves looking after children's health.. I absolutely adore kids, especially little babies, but now that I'm 4-5 weeks into this, I'm realising that I don't think I'm cut out to be a Paediatrician. This has come as a somewhat shock to me, as I've always thought that being a Paediatrician is one of the specialities that I would consider as a career, but after my first-hand experience in it, I'm not so sure if this is right for me. I mean, first of all, it's general medicine, which I forgot how much I disliked. Secondly, it's so darn complicated.. children, as a whole, are a complete different entity from adults and are so much more difficult and troublesome to deal with!!! I'd take a 40-year-old man with a heart attack any day!!
Anyhoo, I've got nothing much more to say. So I shan't say any more.. Long live the fatties!
But today, I've learnt that there's something else that I hate even more.. being fat and being broke.
Yes, this is a ranting-post and I sure as hell am ranting with my sub-par, less-than-satisfactory physical and financial condition now. Doesn't help that there's only so much I can do to rectify it..
Firstly, being fat. No, I'm not asking for loads of people coming to me and consoling me with the whole "Oh no, Jean, you're not fat.." statement. I am not asking for that.. if I need an ego boost, I'll come to you personally and tell you directly that I need one. No need for all the usual beating-around-the-bush b***s**t.. I'm merely stating a fact that I deem true, so please please please, no one try to refute me on this.
Anyhow, I've been on a diet for the past 5-6 weeks. Nothing majorly crashing, cos' I believe that once you lose all the weight you've lost on crashing slimming diets, it's really difficult to maintain it afterwards, when you go back to normal life. So, I'm just taking the initiative to eat healthier than I already am, cut down all, and I mean, all snacks (e.g. chocolates, crisps, biscuits etc) and most importantly, exercise. I've been doing quite well, (apart from this week, which is my major slip-up) and even keeping up my going-to-the-gym-twice-a-week regime and my walking-up-and-down-16-flights-of-stairs-everyday-in-hospital spurt.
However, sad to say, I barely lost 1 kg over this time and am bitterly disappointed. As one of my closest friends, BH, not-so-kindly pointed out, if you're born with a big frame, you're always going to be of a big frame. Some of my more kind friends have suggested that because I'm getting toner, and converting fat to muscle, since muscle is heavier than fat, maybe I'm getting fitter and slimmer anyway. Anyhow, I'm keeping my expectations low and am just going to keep trying my best!
(Incidentally, WS just got back 3-4 weeks ago, (yippie! and hence, the reason why there hasn't been an update for about a month.. hehe.. sorry!) and said I looked slimmer.. so that's a good sign!) Anyway, the reason I'm publicly announcing this is, say a few weeks down the line, when any of you see me (personally), you can tell me directly things like "So how's the diet going?" or "Hey Jean, heard about your diet.. doesn't look like it's working, huh?" to serve as a healthy reminder for me, just in case I slip up.. embarassment and the fear of losing (losing face, in this case) is always the key to success!
Next, issue with my finances.. I have absolutely no idea why I'm so broke. I'm leaving for Barcelona and Madrid for a week next Sunday (WOOHOO!!) and I have to dig into my savings for enough money to spend on the trip. Sighh.. don't think I'm gonna be able to enjoy this trip too much after all.. :( The thing is, even with my current part-time job, I'm still finding it difficult to make ends meet, so I don't know what the heck is going on! Plus, I need to buy my car soon so that's going to drain most of my savings out... Will I have to live on the street?
Apart from that, not really that many updates to post on here.. Got some very interesting news from my long lost friend the other day, but nothing much to share here, as I'm not sure if I'm at liberty to post it publicly.. And there's another issue with one of my 'ji mui' from back home.. again, it certainly is newsworthy, but not sure whether I should publicly announce it here.. These aside, nothing much really.. saw WS twice already since he's been back, and it's certainly been great as we haven't seen each other for so long! Absence certainly makes the heart grow fonder! heehee..
Oh, just a little note. I'm currently doing my Paediatrics attachment, which involves looking after children's health.. I absolutely adore kids, especially little babies, but now that I'm 4-5 weeks into this, I'm realising that I don't think I'm cut out to be a Paediatrician. This has come as a somewhat shock to me, as I've always thought that being a Paediatrician is one of the specialities that I would consider as a career, but after my first-hand experience in it, I'm not so sure if this is right for me. I mean, first of all, it's general medicine, which I forgot how much I disliked. Secondly, it's so darn complicated.. children, as a whole, are a complete different entity from adults and are so much more difficult and troublesome to deal with!!! I'd take a 40-year-old man with a heart attack any day!!
Anyhoo, I've got nothing much more to say. So I shan't say any more.. Long live the fatties!
posted by Jean at 10:27 PM
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